To Fall In Love

He looked into my eyes with his warm eyes, as he took my hand in his, and kept it there safe and warm, as his lips curled in what was simply a heart melting smile. A butterfly started fluttering in my stomach. My heart started dancing, I think that my face was flushing red, and I smiled in a trance, I felt I was locked into his gaze, I couldn't move, or even move my eyes away,, I didn't want to flinch my eyes, because I fear that all this would be a dream, and when I would look again I would find out that he is not there.. That all this is just a beautiful dream..
As I sit now, and remember that beautiful spring day, I can still feel that same butterfly dancing in my stomach, and I can still feel my heart dancing and I am pretty sure that my face would be flushing red,,, even now after so many years, I can get the same feelings I got that first day when we discovered that we were so deeply in love, and blessed my lips with our first kiss....
At eighty years of age, they say that your memory starts to betray you, may be it is just the aging of your nervous system, or may be it is that your brain cells are really full and overloaded, you start getting things mixed up,, Sometimes I feel that I am a bit disoriented, I see the faces of all my loved ones around me, filling my life with joy and happiness,, I know them all, but sometimes I get the names mixed up for a second or two, then the right brain cell gets to work, and I get the right name out at the right time,, I can still read with the help of my glasses, and I do that a lot, in a trial to exercise my memory.. The doctors have always said that this is the best preventive measure to delay senility or even to prevent it at all,,, But the best exercise I like the most, and enjoy doing the most, is the one where I replay in my mind those first days when we fell in love.. When I regained my trust in life and found out that there is true love, it is not something that you read in romantic novels, or a movie you watch and it leaves you crying as THE END appears on the screen.... No,,, True love exists and I have been living under its wings and its protection ever since I could remember,,
As I sit now, after millions of years away from that day, and as I close my eyes, although they sting a bit from that cataract, but the whole story replays in my mind, I can even smell him on that first day, I can hear his voice so clearly, it feels like just right now,, it feels so real.
I enjoy doing this every once in a while,, To sit back relaxed, and close my eyes, and let myself drift on the cloud of sweet memories,,, The way he holds my hand, the way he caresses my hair, and tangles its locks into his sweet fingers,, the way he whispers " I love you" on my lips as he touches them when we kiss, the way he knows exactly when I need a hug, and gives me a huge one in his strong arms, as I melt into his embrace... Those first days showed me that there is love, that soul mates do exist, it is not a fairy tale; When someone looks into the moon, and know how you feel, even if you were not together, when someone looks into your eyes, and know what you want to say; even if you are silent, when someone feels one with you, feels his soul living inside you, enjoys making you happy, and you can be your true self with him,,, then this is your soul mate,, And only very lucky people, and they are very few are those who get to find their soul mates in their life time,, You can fall in love at any time during your life, but you can find your true love only once,, and life gives you the chance to meet your true love, also only once, so you should cease the moment, and take that chance and live it to the best of your ability,, You'll find out what real happiness really is, what it is to be your true self... With your soul mate there is not pretense, no faking it, to formalities,, you are what you are, he is what he is, and you take each other and love each other for what you are.. When you have true love in your heart you'll know that it is taking care of you, you know that you are protected.... One that spring day, when he called me "My Queen" I knew that I have found out what I have been looking for all my life,, and that finally I am home.. Each night before I went to bed I said a silent prayer that this would be the real thing, and not just a spring fling, that what we have now would survive forever.. In his eyes I saw the world with brighter colors, and life seemed more beautiful,, Now millions of years away from that day, as I sit in my rocking chair, eyes closed, trying to relive those first days, I smile as I feel his hand going through my hair, holding the locks into his fingers, I open my eyes,, and ....
There he is, the man of my dreams, the love of my life, my soul mate, sitting beside me,, saying 'it seems that you have fallen asleep my love, why don't we go to bed".... I hold up my hand to touch his cheek, and my hand doesn't look eighty at all,,, I am still me,, with my thirty something years, and my love is as strong and lovely as ever,,, it seems I was having a sweet dream,,, or was it a revelation into the future,,, a revelation to tell me that when you have true love it lives forever,,,, It would never be a spring fling..

When you have love you have the greatest power in the universe inside your heart, and you are able to achieve the impossible...